“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.”
I Don't even know where to begin. The last few weeks have been very long. No ONE thing..just the complications of living, and the way we have to continuously Breathe, breathe Breathe.
I'm tired of having a Strong Soul. I have enough Scars. I don't need any more "Character". I've developed enough.
God Help me. Is there Joy to be had?
Two moms at parenting classes I taught on Saturday told me they were Suicidal. One had four kids, one had I think 3 or 4, with her 18 yr old niece living with her. COmplicated lives. Complicated problems. Emotional puking on a stranger. Is that what we do? Is that what Counseling is for..so we can control who we puke our emotional baggage on? I went several months ago..in the Spring, after the D.C. trip. I just wanted OUT. I was exhausted, tired of my life.
Not in "ending it all". Just bored of the tendium. Bored of having to breathe. I know that sounds awful...But..its exhausting just to live.